more confessions...

This topic is very important. So many women have issues with their bodies and I think it's about time to ease the pain. We are beautiful women and have so many talents and abilities and we let body image cloud over all we are capable of. The one thing I wish women could do as well as men is separate body image from self image. Men can put on a few pounds and go about their business without the frienzied manic panic attack/depression that women who gain a few pounds fall into. Our worth is wrapped up in how we look.
Today I took great care as I got ready for church. I pulled out favorite shirt/skirt combo and grabbed a black cardi to cover where covering was needed. The outfit still fit, but I definatley felt over buldgy wearing it. I did my make-up: I put it on heavier than normal to try to make up for feeling buldgy, blodded and ugly and I curled my hair. I felt icky at church today because looking good and feeling good often go hand in hand and i did not feel like I looked very good.
After church I was very hungry so I ate the rest of the left overs from our dinner party last night, which wasn't much. Then my husband started munching and munching and I followed suit. But you know what? I don't feel that guilty. Yes, I could have done with out that granola bar but what is done is done and it was yummy. After chruch I felt better. I changed out of my tight fitting outfit and put on some comfy clothes and pulled my hair up. I took a nap and spoke to my family. So now I feel rested and loved (talking to my family always makes me feel that way) and I don't feel like eating. My needs have been met.
Tomorrow is another day and another day to feel good about me, not another day to fail. Trying to listen to my body is difficult and often I can't hear what it is trying to tell me, or I ignore it, but I know this is the only way to success. My husband doesn't really get it yet but he'll see as I become happier and more comfortable in my skin. I have faith that this can work. By focusing on being happier and loving my body I know that I can stop the destructive behaviors that I have participated in in the past.
It can be done. Being a women does not have to be painful and full of self hatred. We are daughters of God and every thing from God is good.